Every day I’m reminded in some way of just how much deployment affects us all, especially children. There are so many different emotions that come with a deployment, some are good and some are bad. I think I tend to try and ignore it all and just go on with my day to day. Every once in a while I let the darkness creep in and go to that place where it’s not alright and I’m not okay, but only for a quick time and then I snap myself out of it and move on. I think this way of dealing will bite me in the butt one day when it all actually catches up to me, but really, that’s how I deal with a lot of things in life and after awhile it weighs you down. I’m sure I would be a great case for a psychologist. J
I feel like major life events don’t affect me like they do most people. Sure I get happy and angry and sad depending on the situation, but sometimes I feel emotionally closed off or like I’m holding my breath. I think for the last year I’ve been holding my breath….waiting. I’ll be glad when I can finally let it out and breathe easy for a while.