Week 3 of P90X

I started Week 3 of P90X on Monday!  I've never made it past Week 1 before because of other issues and just not having the time to do it.  Now i'm making the time and treating it as a daily priority that HAS to be done.  I can't even skip one day because I know the downward spiral that will produce.  Once you skip one day you think the next week you can skip another because something has come up and so on.  Not this time.  I've even exercised at 4 or 5 in the afternoon before because I had a busy day but needed to get it in. 

I'm not obsessed with it, but I do like the results i'm already seeing and want to stick with it until the end.  It will be a challenge, especially when Chad gets back and we are just focused on spending time together, but I still need to fit it in.  I have no idea what i'll do after, I haven't thought that far ahead.  I'm trying to just think one day at a time.  Somedays I really don't want to do it, but I do anyway and am always glad that I did. 

I've almost completed the first phase.  Next week the order of the workouts will change because it's recovery week and then in Week 5 I will start phase 2 with a new set of workouts.  Some may be the same from the first phase but i'm sure they will be in a different order with new ones added in.     

Funk

So i'm in a funk again.  It hit last night with a vengeance while watching some CMA show on ABC.  Music gets me and can take me back or wherever I need to go.  I'm really missing my country roots right now.  I know they are always in me but i'm just really missing being in the country and back home I think.  Not Warsaw, my real home where I did most of my growing up with my first real friends.   

Chad is only a couple months away from coming home and I can't hardly stand it.  My strength comes in cycles and it has finally cycled back around to that desperate need/want to have my husband back.  It's a different kind of urge than say needing a drink of water or something to eat.  It's primal and so stronge you just about have to tie yourself down.  I know there's nothing I can do about it which makes it that much worse.  I can't just hop on a plane and go see him or call him anytime I want to hear his voice.  I wish it were that simple.  It will pass and i'll be fine, but it's hard to overcome especially when you have other spouses putting their feelings on top of yours because they too are feeling the anxiousness that comes with waiting. 

Lots to think about and deal with right now inside my head......but i'll work it out.

Friends (or lack thereof) and P90X

It's been a stressful last 5 days for me.  I hate it when you don't know where you stand with someone you consider a very good friend.  I hate it when they are short with you and snotty and you don't know why.  And then when you do find out why, it just makes you feel worse instead of better because you feel like their reasoning is flawed and based on the lies of someone else.  You feel like they aren't listening to a word you say when you try to explain to them that they are wrong and what the truth really is.  I hate it when you feel like you've been replaced and things will never be the same between you and the friend again.  Things go unresolved and will always remain that way because one party refuses to listen and just wants to forget it, but your feelings have already been very hurt and you just can't do that.  Sadly, it's a friendship killer, nothing will ever be the same again. 

Anyway, I decided to take up P90X again.  Last time I did the Classic version and hated a couple of the workouts.  After the first week I had workers here every day for several days and couldn't do the workouts, then I simply fell off the wagon.  Now I have nothing going on here at the house and no excuses so i'm jumping back on the wagon.  This time i'm doing the Lean version, which so far means no hated workouts.  The workouts are long and intense, which is great for blowing off steam due to the aforementioned friend issues.     

Menu Planning

Our menu for this week, starting last night.  For more menu plans check out http://orgjunkie.com/. 

Sunday- Parmesan crusted baked chicken breasts with slow-cooked green beans and wild rice

Monday- Whole wheat spaghetti with corn and garlic bread

Tuesday- Ham and cheese roll-ups with peas

Wednesday- *On the road*?

Thursday- Stromboli

Friday- Tacos

Saturday- Country Pasta